i dont even know where to start

i have a car to drive around..
i have a job that brings in
some sort of income to blow...
i have friends that keep me sane...
i have a family that loves me...
i have things that make life easier for me...

so whats wrong??

funny how one thing
can overtake everything else...

funny how even though
subconsciously you know
that it'll work out in the end
theres still a doubt that it wont...

funny how this one thing mingles
in the middle of your mind
and never goes away...

funny how this one thing isnt causing
heavy-hearted-ness but now
more of a drifting heart...

standing at the edge of a cliff...
will i make it across
or will i drop to the bottom???

i dont like not talking to you

i dont like you not talking to me

i dont like driving around knowing
that i cant drop by your place because...
oh yea your not talking to me...

i miss getting the phone calls
or those random messages...

i hate going out
and theres always
one person missing...

i hate this.

sometimes it takes
a few situations and
a few judgements
to come to a conclusion
of who your true friends are...

gotta put pieces together...
and in the end you find
the real picture...

when do you know
you have the picture???
i dont know.

anyway, just wanna share some lines from
The Book "The Alchemist".

"When someone sees
the same people everyday...
they wind up becoming
a part of that person's life.
And then they want
the person to change.

If someone isn't what
others want them to be,
the other become angry.
Everyone seems to have a clear idea
of how other people
should lead their lives,
but none about his or her own."